Not looking back.

Last night on Drop Dead Diva the theme was trying to get the new Jane to move forward with her life and stop looking back. What's past is past and she can't go back. It was Jane's birthday, of course Deb did not know that. When she found out Jane was turning 32, and Deb was only 24, she felt robbed of those years. If you don't watch the show, this will be so confusing, sorry!

In studying history one learns the value of learning history is so history will not be repeated. I think I might have over applied this in my thinking. I am always so cautious about my mistakes, that I think I spend too much time looking back. In looking back, I never forgive myself of the bad choices I have made even though God is quick to forgive when I ask. He says He will put the our sins as far as the east is from the west. So why can't I do that for myself. No! I have to replay the thing in its misery over and over and over until I deem myself as worthless! In addition to cheating myself out of joy and happiness of living for today.

This week, I am going to change. Let the past be the past and live for right now! The joy, the tears, the right choices and the mistakes will be just that, TODAY-right now moments!

One thing God understands and I have a hard time with it, I am still His child growing everyday!

I am addicted!

Forever I was totally tied to the TV on Thursday nights! FRIENDS, could not live without it! Grieved when it was over! Pledged, never again would I be so hooked.

Since then I have intermediately watched other shows, but I vowed to never be so hooked again. Once I almost got hooked on Survivor but swore off of it on the first season. Then it happened! The Lifetime TV series Drop Dead Diva and Army Wives have got me hooked!

Now, I can't wait for Sunday nights to see my fav overweight Diva struggling with her weight reality. Let's see be fat... or be dead? Ummm, which should I choose?

The show is about a previously skinny model who reincarnates as a fat lawyer. She struggles with physical fat challenges complicated by skinny memories. I always say that I arrived here on this earth as a size 14, but truthfully, I do remember a few skinny days!

Even though she has no memories of the fat lawyer, she does have some brains, which the model never had before. She is shocked every time she thinks of something brainy! One funny scene is when she holds up a full figure bra and says I had full outfits with less material than this!

Army Wives are just a plus. I would not be so tied to it without Drop Dead Diva. But it is entertaining.

Well, truthfully I feel that I am sneaking around, as the preacher warned against spirit type shows. But I can't help myself! I am weak!